Friday, November 21, 2014

A Drop In The Bucket

A Devotional by Margot Cioccio

I have not written in quite a while. I can't say if I will manage to regain any semblance of a regular momentum in writing and posting. Every couple of weeks I get together with a friend and we write and pray. I am always surprised by what is stirred up by that time together. This is what I wrote today. I thought I would share it, perhaps it will encourage you. If so I'd be  encouraged by your comments. Today we read John 6:1-14 and this is the portion that grabbed my attention.

 "Gather the leftovers so nothing is wasted" Jesus tells the disciples after feeding the 5000 with some barley loves and fish from a young boys lunch.  It always strikes me as odd to think of God's interest in leftovers. It is the remnant that God often takes up. The leftovers of the people. The people and things that would seem to amount to nothing.

Isaiah 10:21 says " A remnant will return, a remnant of Jacob will return to the Mighty God. Though your people be like the sand by the sea, Israel only a remnant will return."  In the story from John 6, we don't know what is done with the leftovers. We just know that Jesus wanted them collected in baskets so nothing would be wasted.

We start with a sack lunch, feed a multitude and collect 12 baskets of leftovers.  - Quite a day!
I suppose the Lord always starts with something... a mustard seed of faith, a sack lunch, the willingness to believe and to follow. When compared to the great God of the Universe even our very best is just a drop in a bucket. Yet some how, God will take our, oh so inadequate drops that we surrender to Him and transform them beyond our wildest imaginations.

Even King David, who in the estimations of history was exceedingly great, saw himself as yet another drop in the bucket. He is the least favored of his brothers. When Samuel comes to anoint the next king the other brothers are paraded before him. At last in exasperation he says. "Are there no more?" Only then does the family acknowledge that there is another son, David.
"Who am I, Lord God, and what is my family, that you have brought me this far?" says David later in his life. Maybe that's what made David great. He knew what God could do with a couple of stones and a shepherd boy.

I think we often suffer from low self esteem. I seem to struggle endlessly with the feelings of "I'm not ______ enough" Though out my life I have had to face that giant of self doubt head on and remind it that I may be just a insignificant drop, but I am a drop in God's bucket. I've seen what God can do with drops of nothing much. I push thorough my self doubt believing that God will do something with my meager contribution. Over and over I have seen God provide opportunities, solutions, and creativity that are far beyond my abilities to mastermind, or beyond my ability to even pull all the loose ends together.

That day, in our story, there were twelve baskets of leftovers. Were they served up as a late night snack to the folks that sat listening into the wee hours of the night, or sent home with the poor. We are not told. All we know is that those leftovers were important to Jesus. I think that it is important to God that we not waste what He has provided in excess to our needs.

Give and it shall be given to you, pressed down, shaken together and running over. In our small sightedness we easily focus on our lack when there are the resources of heaven available to us if we would simply ask.  I suppose in asking, we must face our inadequacy. We have to realize that its never been about us alone. It is when we surrender our drop to Him who holds the oceans and the universe in His hands that amazing things begin to happen before our very eyes.

We quickly want to create a success formula with repeatable steps as if to manufacture the presence of God. I think God is already looking for the next seemingly impossible situation and the most hopeless drop in the bucket folks to astound and stretch with His never ending and wonderful possibilities of prevision. Ultimately it becomes yet another display of His great love.

Prayer: Lord, I come to you in my insignificance. All that I am and all that I ever might aspire to be is nothing compared to your glory.  Yet you can do so much with a mustard seed of faith, a pinch of belief and a dash of trust. Thank you that I am a drop in your bucket. I watch with expectation to see what you will do with those things that I choose to surrender to you.  

Friday, February 28, 2014

Other Ways to Relax and Unwind

A Devotional by Margot Cioccio 

For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self discipline.  2 Timothy 1:7 NIV   

The Message says it this way "God doesn’t want us to be shy with his gifts, but bold and loving and sensible."

So in the last six months I have moved my mother's house, my aunts house and our own small home into one larger home. At the same time I started Massage Therapy school. So some things like writing this blog, working on mosaics and painting got put on indefinite hold. It was like my whole life was turned upside down. Not that it was a bad thing, it was all good stuff. My pastor kept asking how my new blessed life was going and all I could respond with is I'm so tired it just feels like a lot of work.
Thankfully our living room no longer looks like this.
We just got out of boxes and the holidays arrived. I think someone sent me a gift card to hobby lobby and I remember wandering around the store trying to decide what to get and in the end I decided I would save it till later because there was no space left in me for creativity. It was all used up.
Much Better
I was doing so well staying healthy until the week between Christmas and New Years when I got sick with the same 
respiratory stuff I tend to fight each winter. It generally hits me in October so I was glad it waited this year. I would have preferred it not to come at all. It may just be my body still trying to get my attention to slow down and allow it to recover from the busyness of the previous four months.  

So we have arrived at March and its not that I am wanting to add to my busyness but I think there are more ways to relax and unwind then to sit in front of the tv watching other people live fictions lives. So tonight I am choosing instead to spend my time blogging. "For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline."
 I think some time we feed our selves so much on the tv that we begin to compare our lives to those fictitious people who some how manage to solve their problems in 30 minutes. We feel frustrated that our own problems seem to never go away. How often do they show anyone doing laundry or the dishes or taking out the trash or wiping runny noses or stinky behind on our adorable children. People always seem to know the right things to say to each other. Duh they have a team of writers working to perfect the amazing things that come out of their mouths.  You have couples who make life together look romantic and mystical when in reality marriage takes work. Communication takes commitment and effort no matter what the relationship may be. They all have what appear to have interesting jobs and make decent money. One cannot help but scratch your head and wonder why your own life sucks in at least one area if not in every area. Wake up from your tv stupor THEY ARE NOT REAL - THEY ARE FICTION! Turn off the box and decide to work on your life to make it what you want it to become. We live in a world with a zillion gadgets that are full of distractions that keep us from really living. We can become isolated in cool technology and we can forget that we need real people we can touch and interact with to live whole and healthy lives.  

How many of you are getting your dose of "feel good" because someone "liked" that picture of a kitty that you posted on your face book page. What have we become as a people when how we feel about our day is based upon how many "likes" we got. How many of those facebook so called friends have you bothered to have a real conversation with lately. It is so easy just to lurk and feel we are involved in peoples lives. I'm not saying its all bad there are people I would not be in contact with were it not for facebook and e-mail. I just think it is easy to become out of balance and to get sucked into a giant technology, entertainment vortex, while opportunities for real life pass us by. We can spend more time playing silly games that accomplish nothing than we do doing little kindness for others. I can hear you saying it already 'but I worked hard all day I need to unwind and relax." Fine but there are other ways to relax. Relax into a creative project or a hobby. Relax by taking a walk or watching the sun set. Read a book, play with your kids, call a friend and visit with them. Play a musical instrument or learn to play one. Take some time to sit or rest with the Lord to hear His heart. Go to bed and get some rest so you are not so tired. 

I'm preaching to the choir and I'm in the choir too. It is easy to fall into a pattern of mind numbness and wonder why some people can accomplish so much and complain that we never have time to do things we wish we could do. Or live in the land of mental fantasy wishing our lives were different. There is always time for the things that are important to you. People tell me all the time I wish I had time to pray. Clearly praying is really not all that important to you or you would make time for it. Saying you wish you had time for God's purposes does not make you more spiritual. Doing his will and purpose does. Its not my place to tell you what God may be calling you to do with your life but I can try to wake you from your places of stupor and remind you to examine how you are spending the time He has given you.  

Prayer: Dear Lord, Help us to examine how we are using the time you have given us. Help us to see those areas that are breeding idleness, depression, worry, feelings of poor me or other such negativity. Help us to fill those spaces with more positive uses of our time and thought life.   

Monday, February 24, 2014

Ordinary Miracles


I have not posted in quite a while. Today I this song by Sarah McLachlan just keeps going through my head. I look around at all the miracles that we take for granted because we have seen them over and over. We so easily forget how blessed we are. I have not recorded and posted a song in quite a while. Today I had a quiet kind of day. I stopped by the Healing Rooms for worship and prayer this morning, took my aunt out for coffee, came home did a little cleaning, journaled and the whole time this song just kept running through my mind.

I realize that I have a lot to be thankful for. His mercies are new every morning. I love the line in this song that says "Don’t need to teach a seed to grow ". I think sometimes we get so caught up in striving to be good enough believers that we forget that it is God who planted that seed of His love in our hearts. Like any seed planted in rich soil, if you water it and allow it sunshine it will grow. To often that little seed is struggling to grow among rocks or thorns of bitterness, regrets, shame, doubt, unbelief. Sometimes our hearts are so terribly broken that even if we do water our little seed of Gods love the water just leaks right out leaving the little seed to struggle for life.  A lot of times we may even realize our heart is a mess but scratch our heads clueless about how to fix it or we look at how big the mess has become and are so overwhelmed or filled with fear that anyone including the Lord might discover who we really are that we isolate our selves even further.

While the journey to spiritual heart health may take you a while. I can tell you that it starts with getting to know Jesus. Opening your heart to Him is where the journey begins and where the journey continues from day to day. He is the one who created you and your heart and He is the one who can help you see how to fix it. I know we would all like those amazing instantaneous miracles and to be counted among the blind who can suddenly see or the lame man who can walk and leap for joy or the crazy demon possessed guy who is freed from his bondage. I don't discount that God can do those things. How I see Him work most often is through ordinary miracles. Things so common or simple that one might easily say it is just coincidence.  The courage to make little changes or take tiny steps of faith are not less miraculous.

I hope you will look around in spite of the difficulties you may presently be facing and realize that you have a lot to be thankful for because all around you are many ordinary miracles. I pray your eyes might be opened to see them. That you would take the time to rejoice over those things that you are able to see.

Monday, December 9, 2013

They cried out to the Lord

A Devotional by Margot Cioccio

Psalm 107 starts out with, Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; his love endures forever. 
Let the redeemed of the Lord tell their story— those he redeemed from the hand of the foe, 3 those he gathered from the lands, from east and west, from north and south

When we are going through the inevitable storms of life it is good to remember how God has helped us in the past. Our testimony of God's help is a mighty weapon against the enemy who would like to weigh us down with stress, despair and hopelessness. I think we must we remember to give thank not only for the great and wonderful stuff but also for the difficult things. It is in the difficulties that we face that we are stretched and shaped. It takes fire and heat to refine gold. It takes and obnoxious grain of sand in an oyster to make a pearl. Not that we need to go out looking for difficulties because there are plenty enough to be found just in the normal course of life. 

The following 40 verse of Psalm 107 shares some of the kind of stories that we might find our selves telling at various points in our lives. Verses 4- 6 "Some wandered in desert wastelands, finding no way to a city where they could settle They were hungry and thirsty, and their lives ebbed away." Sound pretty bad thankfully the Psalm tells us what the people did in the following verse. "Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble, and he delivered them from their distress.

I know as a church we are dealing with the uncertainty of selling our building and finding God's will for our next step. At times it seems like an unbelievably daunting task. I question if we are even up to it as a people. Will we be able to get on the same page as a group of people and walk in a greater level of unity. Not that we must agree on every point. Walking in unity is filled with give and take as we try to together determine God's will and plan for us as a people. I could spend massive amounts of time fretting about it. I could toss and turn at night and drench my pillow with tears. I could try to base a solution on the combine strengths of us as a people. If that is how I am trying to navigate I have made it far too difficult. We have to stop trying by our own feeble might and power and look to our God who says His grace is sufficient and His power is made perfect in our weakness. 

Starting in verse 10 is yet another story. "Some sat in darkness, in utter darkness, prisoners suffering in iron chains, because they rebelled against God’s commands
and despised the plans of the Most High. So he subjected them to bitter labor;
they stumbled, and there was no one to help."  This sounds like a lot of our people who are prisoners to poverty, mental illness, depression or addiction. I am so glad we have started Celebrate Recovery. We prayed a long time for someone like Bob to come along and run with such a ministry. How does this passage end? Much like the previous story.  
"Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and he saved them from their distress." 

Here's another story. "Some went out on the sea in ships; they were merchants on the mighty waters. They saw the works of the Lord, his wonderful deeds in the deep.
For he spoke and stirred up a tempest that lifted high the waves. They mounted up to the heavens and went down to the depths; in their peril their courage melted away. They reeled and staggered like drunkards; they were at their wits’ end." Perhaps you are at your wit's end. You thought you had things handled and then a mighty storm has arisen that threatens to pummel away your last bit of hope and faith. Good stories always have a seemingly impossible problem that must be over come. It always looks hopeless but some how courage rises and unlikely hero's must learn to walk together. Its the climax of the story that is followed by a resolution. Here's how this sea swept story ends according to Psalm 107 starting in verse 28 "Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble, and he brought them out of their distress. He stilled the storm to a whisper;
the waves of the sea were hushed."  

Are you starting to see a pattern in these stories? What ever you are facing remember to give thanks and to cry out to the Lord. He waits for us to realize that we need His help. He desire to be our first rather than our last resort. Don't forget how powerful and faith building it is when we share our stories of what God has done before as we journey together into the unknown. 




Thursday, October 31, 2013

The Crystal Cave

A Devotional by Margot Cioccio

Photo from http://news.nationalgeographic.com/news/2007/04/
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I started my morning out thinking about the stones in the Bible. Stones can be used for a lot of things, alters, covers for tombs, tools, monuments, jewelry.  I've been thinking a lot about the verse in Luke 19 where the Pharisees are telling Jesus to rebuke his disciples. He responds with this verse. 40 “I tell you,” he replied, “if they keep quiet, the stones will cry out.” I think about how we use diamonds to make record needles. Not that many folks use vinyl records anymore. Its kind of a side rabbit trail of wondering if there is deeper wisdom in the use of gem stones. Do various stones have any capability of resonance or give off energy. Might one be helped by wearing one stone rather than another.? I clearly have more questions than I have answers at this moment. One question seems to lead to another and along the way I stumble upon little bread crumbs left by the Lord for me to find. I'm not really sure where we are heading with this but as I follow the Lord I find I have these questions. As I search out the answers I discover things along the way that then point me towards new questions and new discoveries. I guess I think of it as maintaing a sense of wonder. God's creation is so vast and far beyond my simple understanding. I'm like the kindergartner at the zoo thinking wow - those animals are really cool. Not even beginning to realize that each and every animal in the zoo is a study in and of it self. 

 I found this in Matthew Henry's Commentary 

"What a difference there is between men’s building and God’s; when men build their Babel, brick and slime are their best materials; but, when God builds his Jerusalem, he lays even the foundations of it with sapphires, and all its borders with pleasant stones, Isa. 54:11-12; Rev. 21:19

Revelation 21:18-21 NIV

18 The wall was made of jasper, and the city of pure gold, as pure as glass. 19 The foundations of the city walls were decorated with every kind of precious stone.The first foundation was jasper, the second sapphire, the third agate, the fourth emerald, 20 the fifth onyx, the sixth ruby, the seventh chrysolite, the eighth beryl, the ninth topaz, the tenth turquoise, the eleventh jacinth, and the twelfth amethyst. 21 The twelve gates were twelve pearls,each gate made of a single pearl. The great street of the city was of gold, as pure as transparent glass.

So my next thought was that it was notable that the stones are listed in order. I wondered why?  So I started with jasper and I found that it comes in a lot of colors. I found the following in the Easton's Bible Dictionary. 


(Heb. yashpheh, "glittering"), a gem of various colours, one of the twelve inserted in the high priest's breast-plate (Ex. 28:20). It is named in the building of the New Jerusalem (Rev. 21:18, 19). It was "most precious," "clear as crystal" (21:11). It was emblematic of the glory of God (4:3).

Then I found this on jasper in wikipedia.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jasper "Although the term jasper is now restricted to opaque quartz, the ancient iaspis was a stone of considerable translucency. The jasper of antiquity was in many cases distinctly green, for it is often compared with the emerald and other green objects. Jasper is referred to in the Niebelungenlied as being clear and green. Probably the jasper of the ancients included stones which would now be classed as chalcedony, and the emerald-like jasper may have been akin to the modern chrysoprase. The Hebrew word yushphah may have designated a green jasper. Flinders Petrie suggested that the odem, the first stone on the High Priest's breastplate, was a red jasper, whilst tarshish, the tenth stone, may have been a yellow jasper. 

The term basanite has occasionally been used to refer to a variety of jasper, for example a black flinty or cherty jasper found in several New England states of the USA. Such varieties of jasper are also informally known as Lydian stone or lydite and have been used as touchstones in testing the purity of precious metal alloys.

A touchstone is a small tablet of dark stone such as fieldstone, slate, or lydite, used for assaying precious metal alloys. It has a finely grained surface on which soft metals leave a visible trace."

Interesting I think, and I go look at photos of Jasper stones trying to find any that look transparent. I found a photo of someone in front of huge clear crystals. So I click on the photo and found an article that talked about the Crystal Cave. It reminds me of  Super Man's home from the movies. I think about how in Revelation 21 the gates to the city are each made with a single pearl. I look at the immense size of the crystals in the cave and I think I wonder how big the oysters will have to be to make pearls big enough for gates. I think of the saying "The world is your oyster." I think about how tiny pearls are made from irritating grains of sand. I think of the beauty and the mess we've made of our world. Which causes me to think of Ecclesiastes 3:11 "He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end."

So I go to find out more about the crystal cave. I found theses videos and I sat and watched them with great wonder and fascination. They lay under the mountain in water and would not have been discovered except for the mining in the area that pumped out the water. They would not have been created or grown except for the heat and water and gypsum. I think sometimes it is the heat and pressure and odd circumstances in our lives that create the conditions for us to become all He intends for us to become. 

Revelation 4:6 NIV

Also in front of the throne there was what looked like a sea of glass, clear as crystal. In the center, around the throne, were four living creatures,and they were covered with eyes, in front and in back.

I need to get on with other things but I leave this little journey with a greater sense of wonder, awe and a deep humility. I am reminded again of John 21:25 NIV 
"Jesus did many other things as well. If every one of them were written down, I suppose that even the whole world would not have room for the books that would be written."

Here are the videos about the Crystal Cave hope you will enjoy them. 

The Crystal Cave Videos

http://youtu.be/laMZAJ2L_1Y  Episode 1 of 5

http://youtu.be/tlz8Z_QZU40 Episode 2 of 5

http://youtu.be/K7VunyiXhDg Episode 3 of 5

http://youtu.be/gwkE7DWrgr0 Episode 4 of 5

http://youtu.be/bx81-exV7g8 Episode 5 of 5


Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Carpe Diem

A Devotional by Margot Cioccio 

1 Peter 1:24-25 (NASB)
24 For, “All flesh is like grass,
And all its glory like the flower of grass.
The grass withers,
And the flower falls off,
25 But the word of the Lord endures forever.”
And this is the word which was preached to you.

I can't help but read this verse and chuckle. Years ago I had painted a shirt with these words and a bunch of flowers. Only I used a version that said "All men are like grass". I was wearing it one day and some ultra feminist woman saw it and commented as she passed by about no good, men being like grass that should be trampled on. Clearly she missed the point of this verse. It was not a slam on men but a reminder that our glory is for a very short time. Like the flowers of the field we grow old and wither and die. Thankfully our time frame is longer than flowers but in the great expanse of time our 70 to maybe a 100ish years of life is pretty fleeting. 
What are you doing with the time you have been given? 

The words Carpe Diem come from the last line of a Latin poem by Quintus Horatius Flaccus from about 65BC to 8BC. It talks about not spending your time trying to predict the future. Rather get on with living your life. The last line ends with the words Carpe Diem which means to seize the day.

Are you living in the present or are you spending your time regretting the past and dreaming about a different future. We can find our selves developing our future plans about what we will do and who we will do it with and rather than living in the present we are busy living in a fantasy dream of our possible future. There are always unknown variables that are out of our ability to control and in those cases we sometimes even have alternate future plans. I'm not saying that one should not have a general sense of direction or a vision for ones life. Vision and purpose are good things and help keep us moving in the direction we want to head. It becomes a problem when we spend all our time dreaming. Sometimes we do this because our present life is a mess and we are depressed and unhappy. So we spend our time dreaming and hoping that things will someday be better. The fact is that if you don't begin doing something today to move towards that vision you will never get there. At some point you have to seize the day and do something productive with it. When I am working on art projects I often don't have everything I need to accomplish the project. So I assess what I do have to work with and do what I can with that or I realize I need to work at getting the needed supplies. Getting the supplies or the training that I need is part of the bigger process. What I don't do is sit and fret or have a pity party because of the current state of my project as compared to the vision of it that I have in my mind. I constantly ask the question "What can I do today that will help me to actually move towards the vision. I think sometimes rather than being purposeful about moving towards a vision we default into what I like to call floating down the lazy river. We just drift along reacting to circumstances and we go with the flow. I don't think that God intends for us to be tumble weeds for Christ blown about by every circumstantial wind. Like a runner in a race we are to press on towards the goal. 
1 Corinthians 9:24 "Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but only one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may win."
If you want your future to be different than your present you have to decide to do something with today. Too often we just continue to do the same old thing hoping for different results. To often we get stuck in the familiar comfort zone even if there is a lot about it that could be better. We sit around praying Oh God come solve my problem thinking that we have no part in the process beyond crying out to God. Obviously prayer is a good place to start. Too often we are trying to have our will be done when we should be seeking God for His will to be done. We can be mad at God for not giving us the desires of our heart. We are quick to quote Psalm 37:4 and then wonder why its not working for us. 

Psalm 37:3-5 (NASB)
3 Trust in the Lord and do good;
Dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness.
4 Delight yourself in the Lord;  (I believe this means learning to enjoy His will and ways)
And He will give you the desires of your heart.
5 Commit your way to the Lord, Trust also in Him, and He will do it.

Heres the deal - God desire is for you to become more and more like Jesus. Its a process of humbling our selves, learning to trust, learning to obey, learning to know God's heart and purposes. For most of us its a slow process because we are too busy trying to do what we want and to get God to help us do it.  

Some of you are thinking some day I will do more for God. Someday I'll have more time to pray and seek the Lord. Someday I will read my bible. Someday I will help the poor or go to the mission field. Someday I will have enough money to support God's work. I heard someone say "The road to hell is paved with good intentions." 

James 2:17
In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.

Seize the day. Take a step towards the goal. Do something you probably can't eat the whole elephant in one bite but at least take a nibble and keep nibbling. Then look back from time to time to see how far you've come and take a moment to celebrate. 


Monday, October 28, 2013

These Words of My Mouth

A Devotional by Margot Cioccio

Emma
May these words of my mouth
and this meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, 
Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer.
Psalm 19:14 NIV

We have been created in the image of God who spoke things into existence. The words of our mouths are powerful things. Its not just the word we say to or about the Lord but also the words we say about ourselves and others. I am reminded of another verse Proverbs 18:21
The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit. We can use our words to speak truth, health, love and peace or we can use our words to gossip, spread rumors or stir up strife,  hatred, pain and unbelief. It is said of the prophet Samuel that he let none of his words fall to the ground. He was careful of what came out of his mouth. We should use ours wisely as well 

I suppose my challenge today is for each of us to be aware of our words. When I was a little girl my grandmother used to say "If you don't have anything good to say, don't say anything at all." That is a good reminder for us. I think some of us do pretty good with our public words to others but are not as kind to ourselves. We buy into negative self talk. What do you see and say when you look in the mirror. Are you reminded that you are wonderfully made. Do you marvel at how God created you from dust? Do you remember that you are His child whom He loves in spite of your flaws and failures. Probably not - you probably see, fat, ugly, old, or all your perceived flaws.  Do you walk around with guilt and shame or as one set free and forgiven? Most of us look in the mirror and beat our selves up in one manner or the other. Don't! Start at the mirror and then remember through out the day to speak health, peace, life, joy not only to others but to yourself as well.  Philippians 4:8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 

We all have challenges but we don't need to allow those things to define us. Our circumstance, our job, or kids, our health do not define who we are. In Christ we are new creations. In Christ we are loved and accepted. To many of us go around saying things like I'm sick, I'm depressed, I'm broke, I'm ugly, I'm stupid, I'm a looser... We could chose to stand on God's word regarding such things. I am Gods child and I may currently be facing some challenges but I am believing that my God is my healer and my provider. With Him all things are possible. He knows the plans he has for me and those plans are for my good and not for my destruction. 

Well I started this last week and never got back to post it. This whole moving process has been grueling but things are starting to shape up. School is going really well, I'm looking forward to everything finally being put away in the house so I can concentrate on studying and my student massages. So for a while I will continue to post when I can - I'm pretty sure that won't be daily but there are over 400 posts at this blog if you are needing more to read.

Also please pray for Emma I took this photo earlier in the summer. She was born mosaic turners syndrome and is presently having trouble with both of her kidneys.  We have seen God do so many miracles to preserve her life and she is in need of yet another. Her family could also use your prayers they have been walking through some pretty tough stuff.